emotional breakdown

i don't know what to do right now

im on the verge of emotional breakdown and shutdown

and i just can't sit down and take a deep breath

I just learned that my boy kitty KC isn't going to make it much longer..

i've had him since i was 4, he's my brother, my baby and i can't bring myself to realize that he's going to be leaving me soon.

November just hasn't been good to me the last two years

my grandpa passed away 2 novembers ago, last november i was trapped in florida isolated from everybody and this year im going to loose my baby.

One good thing has come out of this November and thats Josh and Ashleys baby stone, im so happy for them and im looking forward to meeting him in the future.

But apart from that i just don't know what to do.

im trying to look at this in a not so gloomy way by thinking you know he's been here for so long and i have so many good memories..

and on top of this everything is just piling up.

school is reaching the winter finals period and i just ugh this part of the year always screws me over.

i just can't get a grip and i know i keep going on and on and on

i just really need a hug and a moment to take a deep breath but i can't find that.

-Josta